| | I haven't felt so right since he kissed me.
He's left me a
complete mess.
This throbbing, nauseating pain keeps finding its way to
the pit of my stomach.
And all I really want is some secure solitude
but I can't even get that.
I swallow the pain and the tears but my eyes
are so blank & vacant and my spirit is so limp.
An empty bed awaits
me tonight but will be let down.
I fear this black, starless sky, cold
& empty, and this fire burning my insides.
All I can think about is
my forgotten blade gracing my skin and easing whatever it is exactly
that I'm feeling inside.
But the pain is so relentless.
Can't I just
cut out my heart? Free myself completely.
These days wear me out, I slowly fade - burning out like the stars in
my night sky.
The sun comforts me until the night falls and the shadows
find me again.
Footsteps fall like rain, but I am alone.
I stiffle my screams with my
heart, & these tears drown me to sleep.
I bleed these words but
they're not enough. I'm not enough.
No, I'm nothing {to him}.
I fight
this everyday.
But inside, I'm crumbling.
He still has me.
This
depression still has me.
The best I can do is to let everyone think
that I'm OK.
But really,
I'm
falling
apart.
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